just trying it out. I'm at work. checking if IT of this company can really detect who's surfing the net or not. OK, let's start. February 09, I've started working in this company. unknowingly, i was able to stay up until now..it's been more than a month. not like my stay at ETEL which lasted only 2 pay outs. hehehe. for now, since I'm still in training it's more of "petix mode". let me give you a brief description of what i do here. i review medical claims of injured workers (or IW as it's popularly called here) and recommend or refer further actions about the claim. i can recommend for a nurse case manager to look up the claim and follow up on the IW. basically, it's like doing a Nsg Care Plan (NCP) for the injured workers. i really don't find it fun, but i'm satisfied with what i'm doing. oh by the way, i forgot to mention exactly how we are called, we're Triage Nurses. soshal noh? never did it came to my mind that i will be titled as a "nurse" if i work in a call center again. actually, i don't consider this company as a call center. yes, we do get to call and recieve calls from US but only if it's necessary. it's pretty much like office work. but the thing is, since we have the option to call doctors or nurses (aka providers) from US, we have to work in graveyard shift. but it's all good, night diff compensates the schedule. so there, i'm actually enjoying what i do here. at least for now, where i get to just blog around while i'm being paid. hahaha. pretty soon i have to finish at least 10 claims in one shift. hope i'll be able to do it..i just need practice, practice and more PRACTICE!
on being a productive citizen of this country...again.
I
started my training earlier for another call center company.I can’t believe it.I thought after my APAC days where I spend 6
months as a customer service representative, I would not go back to this
industry again.But I guess I spoke too
soon.Here I am, another newly hired
from another call center company in Makati, trying to earn sufficient salary
that would make my ends meet.Yes, it
would definitely make my ends meet but what about my nursing profession?What would happen to it?I can’t help but be bitter sometimes whenever
I see someone I know who graduated on the same year that I did and is now
working in a hospital.They may not be
earning as much salary as that in a call center, but at least they get to
practice their profession.This sucks,
really!
But
on a positive note, with the current economic crisis and lots of companies are
laying off people, I am lucky to at least have a job – even though I know that
I can’t use the degree I finished in college.So I guess I’ll stay for a while, maybe another 6 months or so,and try my best to like my job and perform my
best at work. i need a positive aura.
Can anyone help in making me believe again on the concept of "happily ever after"?The thought just came to me a few seconds ago, like an epiphany, that whenever I get to watch movies with happy endings, I tend to scoff and make negative comments.I'm not bitter or anything, I guess you could just say that I'm a realist.Like what my 2nd year high school teacher used to say, (and I'm definite I've quoted her statement already on my previous posts) "there is nothing constant in this world except for change".The sentence says it all.How can you force someone to believe in "ever after" - the concept of absolute permanence, if there's a constant change? It's quite the opposite of "ever after" is it not?
As I grow older, I tend to see things more clearly, slowly learning to accept the reality that I was scared of back when I was still in high school and college.I got to talk with a very good friend of mine about how we used to deal with "puppy love" when we were in high school and comparing at present, the concept of it is such bullshit.Think about it, you spent almost all your allowances and sometimes you even have to borrow from your friend or siblings extra money just to get something for your special someone or to celebrate your anniversary, monthsarry, weeksarry or even daily! And whenever you two are together, it seems like it's your last day on earth and you want to be with your bf/gf before you leave for planet mars.But now it's different.On the course of college life, we get to learn how to prioritize - and to know that your special someone is never on the topmost list.It's the idea that we got to embrace and loved. I guess I could say that these past few years of my life, I've grown more mature than what I hoped would be.I began to see different perspectives in life that I disregarded back when I was just a kid.
But then again, maturity won't help me believe in happily ever after.So back to my question, can anyone help me to believe again on "happily ever after"?
i've been tag by yeine. yeine, sorry for the delay. ^_^
Here's the rule..
Click copy/paste, type in your answers and tag four people in your lists! Don't forget to change my answers to the questions with that of yours.
1. Four places I go to, over and over:
a. toni's home - @ wayling-wayling. it's our place to be! b. church - i may not look like the spiritual type, but hey, from time to time it's nice to reflect on things c. starbucks - particularly the pamplona branch. i always feel like i'm home when i'm here. lurve the coffee, the ambiance. and the memories... priceless! d. home - guess there's no need to explain this further.
2. Four people who e-mail me regularly:
a. lina@jobstreet b. multiply c. friendster d. sja_yahoo groups
*can anyone spell, L-O-S-E-R??? haha. they're not even considered people! they're just websites! haha.
3. Four of my favorite places to eat:
(on the top of my head...)
a. Don Hen - fried mozzarella sticks, buffalo wings...yum yum!! b. Luk Foo - the best Chinese restaurant. try their buttered fish...sarap.... c. Kakalok - this one's in Hong Kong. they have the most delicious chao fan. d. McDonald's - of course, it's an all time favorite. best of all, it's open 24 hours.
4. Four places i'd rather be:
a. USA (New York) - i want to start my career here. plus, my parents wants to live here as well. hope i could make their wish come true. b. Tagaytay - hope i could have a home here someday. i love it here way better than Baguio c. Davao - i've only been here once. and i want to experience it again. d. on top of a mountain. i don't care which mountain. i just want to experience waking up and looking at the sunrise on top of it.
5. Four TV shows I could watch over and over:
a. Friends. in fact, i'm watching it right now. b. Desperate Housewives c. Nat Geo's How do they do it d. The Simpsons
6. Four people I think will respond:
a. toni b. marsha c. issa d. iyay
* isn't it weird that you only list up to 4 things but the categories reaches up to 6?? well i didn't make the rule..i just follow it. hope you do the same. ^_^
lately, i seem to be uber lazy. i always have these tasks on my mind that i want to complete but i always procrastinate on them. i guess my "bumming around" finally took its toll on me. it's been 1 year that I've graduated and yet somehow, in that span of time, my nursing career "took a break". it's like one year of sabbatical - of wandering into nothingness.
i want to go back working in a call center but i know i have no future in this line of work- financially probably, but not in the long run. applying in a hospital is not an option either since all they offer are training for a month or so and then they wait list you until there's an available slot which i think will only happen on 2 scenarios: 1) a staff nurse resigns to start a new career abroad or 2) a staff nurse dies. and with the surplus of nurses coming from some of the best nursing schools, getting a job is a pretty long shot.
i just finished updating my resume and sadly, i haven't seen much progress on myself since the start of this year. my last seminar was July 2007, i haven't taken any BLS and first aid course at red cross and i haven't had my IVT training yet. it's depressing. I'm seriously thinking about getting back to school instead, at least if I'm in school i can be more productive than what in I'm doing right now.
in the meantime, I'll just continue my blogging. for me, blogging is productive enough.
beijing '08. admittedly, i'm really not an avid sports fan. heck, i don't even have a sport to which i can confidently say i'm good at. and just to rate how much i suck at sports, i got a 2.5 grade for my PE when i was in college - my lowest grade in my entire college career. but watching the beijing '08 olympics was really something. i can honestly say i stay tuned to it as much as i can, be it in TV, newspaper or in the internet. thank goodness for internet - i can stay updated whenever i want.
i guess it all started when i started watching at Discovery Channel on how the Bird's Nest / National Stadium of China and the Water Cube / National Aquatics Center was constructed. it really got me curious on how China really allocated that much budget just to host the olympics. well, i think they did get their money's worth. for 2 weeks, the whole world watched China, particularly Beijing, like a hawk as the Olympics were held, from opening up to the closing ceremony and they did not disappoint the spectators. the opening ceremony was spectacular. i was really lost for words on how to describe the opening. in fact, it was so remarkable that the London 2012 olympics already released a statement not to expect an opening ceremony as good as that of beijing '08. the closing ceremony was not bad either - i think it was even better than the opening. they presented the asian culture to the west, showing each era of development.
world records were broken, olympian underdogs showed their real potential, and medals were won. 205 countries competed, and only 50+ countries had the chance to be awarded the much anticipated beijing 08 medals. yet, no one complained; win or lose, each olympian gave their very best shot. it was really 2 whole weeks of pure sportsmanship. in the end, Beijing '08 olympics did impart their motto to the whole world:
"One World. One Dream."
addendum:
of course it was unfortunate that Philippines did not bring any medals home, but heck, they give their best. being an olympian is an award itself. hopefully on the London 2012, we'll get lucky.
trivia:
did you know that?
- the 5 mascots of the Beijing '08 olympics, BeiBei, JingJing, HuanHuan, YingYing, NiNi, stands for Beijing Huan Ying Ni which means "Welcome to Beijing" it was their theme song for the 100 day countdown before Beijing '08 begins.
- Michael Phelps (my favorite olympian ever) suffered from ADHD as a kid and swimming was part of his treatment regimen
- Matthhew Micham (another favorite), an Australian Diver who won the gold medal for the 10m diving men's division, outed himself in front of the Sydney Press before Bejing '08 began.
- the torch, was designed in a form of a rolled up scroll as to celebrate one of the most important contribution China ever made in mankind - paper. and the design imprinted on the scroll are lucky clouds which for China, symbolizes harmony.
- The medal for the Beijing 2008 Olympic Games is designed with inspiration coming from "bi", China's ancient jade piece inscribed with a dragon pattern. The medals, made of gold and jade, symbolize nobility and virtue and are the embodiment of traditional Chinese values of ethics and honor, sending forth strong Chinese flavor
- ironically, the chinese architect,Li Xinggang, they hired to build the Bird's Nest worked together with a Swiss architect firm.
i was evicted out of my own room because of the pesteng ipis!!! i hate them, hate their guts! hate! hate! hate! now i'm here in our living room camping out because i know i won't be able to sleep tonight. and some time throughout the night, that little creature will just crawl into my bed, and i won't let that happen. so i guess i'll just camp out here in our living room until that thing leaves.
was up all night hanging out, more of an inuman session with matching videoke actually. somehow within that few hours, i was able to escape from what i truly feel. i was happy, genuinely happy. too bad it had to last only for a few hours. i guess you really can't get too much of a good thing. now here i am, with a morning headache. how i wish it's just my head that aches, i can probably numb it up with tylenol or advil. hah, guess i'll sleep this one out...
They say an idle mind is a devil's playground. I say different. For me, an idle mind mirrors your past. it gives you time to reflect and think about what have you done, be it right or wrong, regrettable or not. and since i've been having too much free time on my mind these past few days, i can't help but think about it.
i'm currently fixated on this song right now. "I'll be okay" by Amanda Marshall. it's really a song about facing the fact on letting go. yes, it's another bitter song about love, which more often than not, i feel i can relate to. i think it's my thing - being bitter. i can't function if i'm not, if i'm to giddy or if i'm too optimistic about life. yes my dear readers, i live in bitterness and i feel like i function better when i am one. it's like my heroin / crack. so what keeps an idle mind, particularly mine, busy nowadays? thinking about him, again! and it all comes back to him. for the past few weeks that i have been a bit busy reviewing for my NCLEX, i actually thought i was over him. like i can function and finish the whole day without thinking about him - well i did, for a short period of time that is. NCLEX was just like an anesthesia who relieved me from a deep penetrating wound but the thin is it's only temporary. and the more i listen to the song, the more i wanted to cry. i didn't want it to end, though it didn't start in the first place. i didn't like how things turned out, but that's how it did.
arrghhh!!! i hate this! i'm back at square one. heck, i don't think i even moved a single square in the first place! here i am AGAIN ranting about how i'm bitter about life. the sad part is, i can't move on. everytime someone new enters my life, my paranoid mind suddenly flashesback memories and i think about what had happened and finally realizing that it's just not worth the effort anymore, it's not worth going back to another rollercoaster ride. it's just isn't worth going through with it one more time.
i realize i'm one heck of a damaged produce, i bet no one would even buy me if im on the $0.99 pile - not literally of course. but somehow along this journey, there's still a little spark of hope left of me, that there's that special someone who will accept me, even if i'm all bruised and smashed to pieces. oh yes, the bitter me still believes in a fairy tale happy ending, i still believe in true love.
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here's the lyrics of the song "I'll be okay" by Amanda Marshall
Its time to let you go It's time to say good-bye No more excuses No more tears to cry There's been so many changes I was so confused All along you were the one All the time I never knew
I want you to be happy You're my best friend But it's so hard to let you go now All that could have been I'll always have the memories She'll always have you Fate has a way of changing Just when you don't want it to
Throw away the chains Let love, fly away Till love comes again I'll be okay
Life passes so quickly You gotta take the time You'll miss what really matters you'll miss all the signs I've spent my life searching, For what was always there Sometimes it will be too late Sometimes it wont be fair
Throw away the chains Let love, fly away Till love comes again I'll be okay
I wont give up I wont give in I can't recreate What just might have been I know that my heart Will find love again Now is the time to begin
Throw away the chains Let love, fly away Till love comes again I'll be okay I'll be okay I'll be okay
Can't hold on forever baby, Can't hold on forever baby, Can't hold on forever baby, I'll be okay
